May the Almighty permit that I be spared of my fate for a few more hours. My hands are too tired and my mind too old and, therefore, cannot fulfill their task as fast as would be expected from a seasoned scribe such as myself. The confession I must write, however, is of utmost necessity, as it is the sole means by which I can still hope to attain salvation after having lived such a vicious sinner’s life.
If I dare compare my humble words with those of a saint, perhaps it should be useful to introduce the description of my long sequence of sins by noting that my life has transcurred a path symmetrically contrary to that of Augustine of Hippo. In his own Confessiones, the good father narrates with detail how he, being born a gentile pagan, made his pilgrimage from error to truth through a multitude of false doctrines and devilish theories, and how he abandoned worldly sin for the hope of resurrection in Christ. Mine, though, was a life of a good Christian boy, baptized and faithful, who, through a long sequence of misadventures, ultimately became an ungodly deceiver. Nay, I not only stopped believing in God, but actually became a servant of the Enemy, for I have employed the last two decades in the work of corrupting our Savior’s teachings.
A plain and clear narrative must, however, start from the beginning, and my purpose in writing these words is not to convince or to entertain but to report as faithfully as possible my errors, and thus I need to follow the logical sequence of causation rather than let my pen wander freely through time.
It would be foolish to ignore that some external events have a causal relation to the corruption of the soul. Only a wicked fool, though, would deny that the most determinant cause of sin emanates from the fallen nature of man, and that every specific sin is ultimately determined by a specific error of a specific person, and it would take the Fallen Angel himself to suggest that a miracle could spawn a sin. I shall not attempt to use the unlikely situation in which I was led as an excuse for my mistakes, only as the needed explanation for how such monstrous acts could even happen to be possible.
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Published February 22, 2012
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